BITTER ENDING

nothing is permanent on earth and i know that. everything is is temporary has no place to exist in the thousand years to come.

the greatest names that existed in the historical books are all gone and just turned into ashes and dusts. the eyes that helped them discover things, the mouth where their wise thoughts came out, the hardworking hands that able them to create things and inventions and the brains that made them think and do those things were even one of the first organs to decay.

but i thought that was it, that everything will be gone when they're gone. that everything has no place to exist except their freshly-to-be-rotten-corpse 6 feet under.

this isn't about the dead people whom i cared for or i know.

i just want to share the thought of giving importance to a person whom somehow you've shared love with.

he loved a person and didn't know it will come to a bitter ending.

"i have given you all the time i could give you and spend the spare hours i had. i even entertained your call in the middle of the night and shared laughs and sweet moments. i shared to you all that i am and all that i want to be.

we had the most romantic moments in every where we could be, we had the happy hours and shared thoughts with. we laugh, we cry and we lean on each other's strength.

we argue on small things and makes it big, but with just a little smile on our face, we easily forgot any. we always tries to settle arguments and ends up with a happy teary moment. we thank each other's compliments and companionship.

everything is so perfect though we tried to make it consistently perfect. we had out future plans and decided to face it both, with you and me.

but time tries to hinder us. we can't have all the years we want and every moment we need.

however i want to spend my whole life with you, i don't know what pulls me down to let go of you. however i want to swallow all my pride just to protect you, but i can't, i really can't.

call me COWARD, STUPID, and even HATE me... i'll accept that.

i know it is wrong. i may just stay in my bed all day all night, i won't eat, i will not laugh nor smile and frown forever.

but i still love you but i don't know what to do, i felt like im in a box that has no door or window, that on the top of it were the people who wanted to separate us sitting on top of it and gave no chance to open it if i'll still fight for you.

i know time will come to an end but i realized it's not true. it's not controlled nor programmed to literally end. but not for me. it depends on us, we could end it or make it last forever. i know it's not yet the perfect time for us, but i hope you could wait.

i'll fight for you soon if i know how to barely stand on my own feet, i will earn the courage to say I LOVE YOU and to start with you anew.

the space you asked from me will be granted but fight for me too. coz i don't want to lose you."

but their ain't no really bitter. time embraces destiny and so destiny embraces us too.

we are destined but only time could tell.

in loving a person, it doesn't mean that if you fight for them, you could barely show how you really love that person. sometimes, it needs other people to interrupt with and those people aren't just the simple people whom you could easily drop.

time is universal and has the power to run and couldn't be stopped by a simple being like us. time embraces us and so we have to embrace time. but not to the point that we will be dependent to it. time is unpredictable and dangerous in some way. this may sounds like a labyrinth but it may depend to how you will analyze it.

what's important? LET LOVE LEAD THE WAY!!!